Today, I put down Angel for her afternoon nap and instead of going to my usual place in the bedroom to work on my laptop; I went and sat on the floor in the balcony.
Suddenly, Angel woke up and out of habit, went straight to the bedroom to look for me. Not finding me there, immediately she cried out loudly.
By the time I kept the laptop aside and went to her, she was completely in tears. The moment I took her in my arms she clung to me tightly, still scared and out of breath. 🙁
I held on to her closely, all the while assuring her that ‘Mamma’s here…she doesn’t go anywhere without you’. She responded haltingly by making muffled anxious noises.
When I finally put her down after some time, she was all smiles again and generously gave me many wet kisses on my cheeks. She laughed blissfully when I pretended to be irritated and wiped them off. I got another cuddly bear hug too.
Seeing her miss I and my presence so much filled me with sudden warmth. Such a tiny sweet helpless being she is and depends on me for everything! If a few minutes can do this, what will happen when she doesn’t see me for long hours?
When I told A Jr about this episode he was perplexed and tried to apply logic to it (Hmpf!), but lovingly told Angel anyway, “Baccha, Mamma Papa and Bhaiya never leave you alone or go anywhere. Don’t be scared like this again, ok?”
There are days when something ticks me off and makes me feel rather clumsy and inconsequential for not having a thriving career or a hefty pay check at the end of each month; like many of my friends and relatives.
Then sometimes, on days like today, I feel like I’ve answered my own question.
My precious little darlings aren’t work, but they are the reason why! 🙂