It is true that it was me whose finger you held when you took your first baby step, but in more than one respect it is you who has taught me that anything can be dealt with, if we get up after each fall and take one step at a time.
I don’t think I’ve yet fully gotten the hang of being a mother to a daughter. I don’t think I ever will. Everyone says daughters are special, and I fully agree. I only wish someone could make me understand what makes them so special! 🙂
Every time you smile, my heart skips a beat. I simply want to run to you and hide and protect you from this big bad world, anyhow. Whenever you say Ma and come into my arms I feel like I was born to play this role in my life.
Today is Durga-Ashtami. This was your second Navratri, but since last time you were too young to imbibe anything, we can discount that for now. You looked radiant in the yellow salwar-kurta I dressed you up in and danced around happily in the house.
Mata ki jyot, going to the nearby pandal for Devi darshan or having girls over for lunch at our place was all new for you, but you enjoyed every bit of it! Also, I must mention that you loved it when Papa and Bhaiya touched your feet everyday in Navratri and said, ‘Khush rakhna Mata!’ 😀
I broke my Navratri fast today, after the Kanya Jiman. For someone essentially regarded as non-religious, observing a strict non-mandatory fast is considered quite a feat by others. While I cringe and complain of acidity and headaches even for a day-long fast, my faith in myself and my beliefs is reinstated during this time.
This was my third year of fasting and you are going to be two next month. I wonder if in some way this isn’t just a happy coincidence. I mean, there are compulsory fasts I observe for Papa and Bhaiya, but this one is between you and me! A mother-daughter bonding thing, if you will. 🙂
I don’t believe my starving is going to make much difference in your life, to be very honest. What I do believe is that our customs don’t obligate women to do anything special for other women. I’m happy with myself for not abiding by that. You’re my girl, and everything I do is for your well-being and happiness. (Shall I try not to be happy that I lost weight during this time 😉 ?)